Wanting Out (personal entry)
Jan. 29th, 2006 11:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
walkwithheroesVery personal vent.
All I know is that I want out of this damn house! My father yells at me for taking a bath at 10:15, instead of 10. See, he's treating me like I'm ten. I know I do some selfish things, but I honestly forget. I forget to eat or take a bath or go to bed. I find myself zoning out. Meanwhile, the man yells at me at least four times a week. And my mom? She pretty much keeps to herself (and her dogs). I don't want some heart warming Lifetime moments. That would just make me uncomfortable. I want out. I want my own place and a job and a life.
I'm 21 years old and I'm wasting my life. I'm watching it go by and I hate that. I don't want to wake up twenty years from now, living at home and being told to eat at six and take a bath at nine and that I can't go see a movie because it's dangerous to go alone. I'm dying here. I wish I were anywhere else. I've got some cash, I should just buy a plane ticket, get a passport, and leave. Yeah right. Tell my 41 year old self sorry. 'Cause she's living at home with her parents.
All I know is that I want out of this damn house! My father yells at me for taking a bath at 10:15, instead of 10. See, he's treating me like I'm ten. I know I do some selfish things, but I honestly forget. I forget to eat or take a bath or go to bed. I find myself zoning out. Meanwhile, the man yells at me at least four times a week. And my mom? She pretty much keeps to herself (and her dogs). I don't want some heart warming Lifetime moments. That would just make me uncomfortable. I want out. I want my own place and a job and a life.
I'm 21 years old and I'm wasting my life. I'm watching it go by and I hate that. I don't want to wake up twenty years from now, living at home and being told to eat at six and take a bath at nine and that I can't go see a movie because it's dangerous to go alone. I'm dying here. I wish I were anywhere else. I've got some cash, I should just buy a plane ticket, get a passport, and leave. Yeah right. Tell my 41 year old self sorry. 'Cause she's living at home with her parents.
